It is so amazing to see a lot of the things spoken, prayed through and planned for in 2020, starting to come to surface this year. It is evidence of the way so many people still pushed through and prayed through all of the BIG things God was placing on hearts.


I got to be a part of one of the big visions one of my dearest friends prayed through and pushed through amidst all the behind-the-scene details we rarely hear about.


I got to tap into a different space of creativity to share a part of my testimony. Truth is, a lot of growth I have walked through is from spaces of heartache and brokenness. Each time, revealing more of myself and discovering pieces of me that demanded a response to heal or to remain the same. If you read my previous blog, you know the option I chose. And will, every time.


One of the profound truths from it all and presently, is this: TIME DOES NOT HEAL.


Though I believe time tells a lot, it does not heal. Sometimes it is dismissive to shut off our feelings in an attempt to avoid sitting in it and be tormented by it for too long, the "being over it" is not healing. That is the deception.


This I AM LIGHT Series, is a 5-part video series composed of five amazing women who have drafted up the courage to boldly share a part of our testimonies. I have sat with these woman over the course of this past year as we tapped in to pray through what we felt needed to be shared, ran through a ton of edited drafts and meetings to discuss the vision. And the power that is about to be released through these videos is going to be profound. whew. We sat in tears the last time we met, before recording and releasing. I absolutely love sitting with people and hearing their stories. Battles and victories that take place before we get to connect with the people God places in our lives.


Truth is, my entire message was changed at 3am the day we planned to film. I sat upright in the dark, mid-dream as if my alarm went off on a Saturday morning. And I don't set alarms on the weekends lol, let me say that much. I sat confused but knowing these are the hours, I know He has something to say. And that morning, it was, "Time does not heal wounds. Speak on that." And for the next two hours, words flowed effortlessly into this piece that is now being shared with you.


And so, the result of the yielding and some of the parts that have made me vulnerable are shared in these five minutes.


I would love you to join the rest of the series as they release for the next 5 weeks. It is a vision to celebrate life, created by Candice Miles, for her 36th Birthday. You can watch the entire series on YouTube.


If this resonates with you, comment below. Would love to hear about how God speaks to you through this and pray with you, if you are currently walking out a healing process now.


to GOLD + GLORY --




https://youtu.be/MXuVqpJURj8



Song: You're Gonna Be Okay, Jenn Johnson *this song carried me through. If my thoughts and feelings could be penned in a melody, it would be this. I hope it encourages you too <3


Featuring Life Coaches:

Lauryne Wasan, GOLD + GLORY


Monisha Donaldson, Emerging Excellence @emergingexcellence


Creator / Producer:

Candice Miles @cmiles3085


Videographer / Editor:

Paul Champy @paulchampy


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Everyone is different, every process is different and every need is different. This is my story and the profound transformation I experienced as a result of the powerful work of awareness, the audacity to "choose me," the bold move to address blind spots, and the power of hiring a Therapist and a Life Coach. This is not to discount any of the effective work both offer but to emphasize the difference. My hope is that after reading through, you will be able to be honest with yourself with some of the beautiful parts that need healing and make a better assessment of the the best help for YOU, so you can live the life you desire the way He intended for you. It is also my hope that you invest in your healing and growth in the same way you invest in big movements, your favorite show, a pedicure, running away and that special coffee run.


...Okay, onward.


The awakening of 2020, shook the core of my inner-world that shed off what I carried longer than I needed to (that kicked off these lbs too) and rocked some of the greatest heart pieces together in alignment. I am still so in awe because it ignited a fire that is still burning, amidst the chaos that radically shook all of our worlds last year... and heck, is now shaking things together again.


I had a choice to let the world around me dictate my world I could take ownership of and decided to make a move. It was not an immediate one as I, too, felt crippled with the uncertainty of a two-week lock down and beyond. Like you, I, too, had a planner full of booked flight departures, BIG ASK PRAYERS like "okay, God I've seen you make the impossible, possible before and I want to see you do it again," to tentative GOLD + GLORY Life Coaching events I was so eager to launch per "20/20 vision."


Standing now in the third month of 2021 and looking back, several of those BIG ASK's were still miraculously answered and the plaguing disasters of 2020's aftermath, still yielded one of the best seasons of my life. Scratch that, one of the best years of all time and my most favorite so far. Every season/year is my favorite until the next one, to be honest haha.


I was already in Therapy (omg I absolutely love my Therapist) and I remember starting this process and being extra prayerful about where I was to invest. I remember "stumbling" on her 4-sentence bio and resonating so deeply with her. So I hired her and booked sessions without a goal in mind, or real evidence I could articulate with words to convey how badly I needed her. We sifted through childhood events, relationships and all of my emotions. She would tell me, "Lauryne every week there is something new and a new wall you break down. You come in through those doors and its like I see a fresh part of you." It was empowering because sometimes you don't see the work being done right away because our lens are different than everyone else's. But I still felt like something was missing.


And so I continued to sit with her. And we both began to see the power in our sessions.


In the brink of the first post-lock down, I was sifting through heartache, and a deep disappointment and confusion. The kind where you are leading, both, deep conversations with yourself to pull it together and combating the assumptions to try and make things make sense. It is insane how one person can pull things out of you because of their proximity and position. And if done healthily, without pointing fingers and quickly placing them in the "toxic" category, it can erupt power and healing if you let it. It is sometimes scary but if we can muster the courage to face it, like we do everything else, there is a freedom on the other side that is more rewarding than trying to protect ourselves and block what is really meant for us.


Like for real, I wonder how much more healing and growth would take place if we stopped being afraid of what may be uncovered and were excited to see depths of ourselves that would make us that much more amazing and more like Him.


But something different was ignited here because I was half-way through self-awareness and radically wanting to be different... to be better.


It was a relationship that opened my eyes to wanting different and seeing that cyclical toxic traits of previous relationships, was possible to break free from if I responded differently, both in word and action. whew. I will say, this was a different ending that played out completely different than the previous endings which allowed revelation, bravely holding the mirror to myself and wiping the lens with a different cloth to see differently (the lens still was foggy but clearer than the ones I wore with whats-his-name, if I can be honest).


It was this two-part revelation:

People may trigger us but it is my responsibility to address the trigger and heal. And people can pull things out of us that no one else can and that can be really frightening.


But the triggering and the pulling is for our good and it is for healing.


I learned how to function after failed relationships, hurt from degrading words, narratives I recited over and over again, and wounded by memories. By function, I mean, the facade I pulled off by pushing through and being strong to stay standing because it really fooled everyone, and I was one of them. But time does not heal all wounds and sometimes those coping mechanisms become the reality of our habits and the lie of "this is just how I have always been." I had no idea all of my defense mechanisms, patterns, cycles and coping mechanisms were the result of inner turmoil that could only be addressed by sitting down and doing the work, after being triggered and facing them instead of running. I didn't know what to call it but the evidence was clear enough to shake me at my core for addressing.


The theme of my life, in the last 15 years, was something like this: the sensitive girl who feels very deeply, over-gives wholly (wholly as in all of what I know was to be me at the time and overly gives because I emptied myself trying to prove my worth, ugh) but have been entirely afraid of hurt so in an effort to protect myself, I built walls that protected me but also kept love at a distance. I feared divorce so heavily, at one point in my life, I refused to believe marriage was for me and convinced myself love would be spontaneous dates, a life in a busy city built by success and I would be so fulfilled by the life I built. I resisted ever getting close to a man because "too close in proximity" meant you would know me well enough to decide to leave once you uncovered my brokenness but also masked this with, "I'll wait for the right one, even though I wont recognize it because I am not sure what a right man is."


whew. Therapy helped dig at the past, learn new strategies for relationships, and did exercises to navigate through my emotions.


At this point in time (back to the heart wrenching disappointment and breaking up with the fantasy of what could have been), I couldn't focus on anything long enough to be productive, I was hardly getting any sleep, was realizing I was dealing with anxiety and I knew this was a whole slew of trauma rearing its head beyond just this heartache. And I had enough; the point where you get to the end of yourself to surrender and are just absolutely sick of the same feeling and tired of trying to ignore it. That kind of end.


I was walking around thoughts as if the walls of Jericho but not getting breakthrough but feeling more broken.


"Why are you like this?"

"When no one validates you, do you know who you are at the core?"

"Why are words sometimes plaguing?"

"Why is being left your biggest fear?"

"If every title and task was stripped from you, would you still be aware of your worth and value?"


I realized I needed help, and so I asked for help and it helped me.

Tremendously.


Therapy sessions were amazing but they were more like it sounds: therapeutic but I was now at a place I needed deeper. I needed a safe place for someone to call me out in love, and be lead by The Holy Spirit. There are plenty of Christian Therapists, let me be clear about that. But I needed someone to pick the pieces a part and ask me questions beyond ones that just solved the riddle of the "why this is so" and "this is where it comes from," and now point me to "how to move forward" and "what can be done in a realistic, practical ways today, right now." Something was missing that I knew needed to be found. Being that I am a Life Coach and this kind of stuff is the passion of my heart, I know the profundity of a Life Coach and have had several life-changing testimonies that was a result of Life Coaching sessions. So I picked up the phone to vent with a friend who I have built a very real, vulnerable and valued friendship with and told her I was serious about change and booked her for a session that afternoon.


The choice to be vulnerable and invest financially in sessions that could have probably been done just effectively in our safe-space friendship, was a conviction to also sow into a place that empowered someone else's purpose and a Kingdom business while also growing and getting the results I wanted. And that is very important to me.


This process and this kind of work is not easy.

It takes time.

It takes intentional effort.

It takes a commitment, one that requires you to recommit every day and stick to your word.

It takes a deep conviction to want to become better; an intentional pursuit to be more like God to grow and heal because you want to be the person He created you to be, to do all that He created you for.


We sat down, created goals and an action plan and proceeded accordingly and it has yielded some of the greatest discoveries that have been unlocking the mysteries of trauma, grief, behaviors and patterns, and habits and cycles that I couldn't "name it to tame it." And it has yielded freedom and deliverance in astounding ways.


I had carried so much mentally and emotionally, it showed up physically. A couple months after my sessions (for this specific thing) concluded, I noticed I had dropped 22lbs even though my workouts and eating habits had not changed for such a drastic difference. Since then, I have lost 50lbs and the healing continues. I am not insinuating that every weight gain scenario is the result of trauma or that thin people don't have trauma but I am saying we carry things differently and if we are honest with ourselves, the evidence is clear. And if it isn't, ask for help ;) (you knew I was going to say that, I know). Oh and yes, I opened myself up to love again. The discovery of that defense mechanism has been real profound and lead me to a door called grief that I had not processed fully.


Let me be clear: I cried. a lot. all the time. But I didn't fold.

I still cry, I still am on a continuous process of healing. And I will not fold.


Therapy and life coaching has helped me in powerful ways that have lead to a deeper appreciation for myself and a deep conviction of my worth and value. My identity is only found in God and I have found that sometimes, the harvest reveals weeds that need pulling. And so the pursuit to be whole in Him and more like Him, continues.... cheers to healing and growth!


So how can you vet your help by deciding whether to choose a Therapist or a Life a Coach, or both.


Until recently, Therapy has always been the place we seek help health and growth, it has become more common for people to hire a Life Coach.


The big difference is that therapy often focuses on mental health and emotional healing while life coaching focuses on setting and achieving goals.


Therapy is often ongoing, while life coaching is focused on the here and now, and the future.


Life Coaching empowers you to take action by asking powerful questions only YOU can answer


Life Coaching is goal-oriented, focused on being productive so that transformation can transpire. It is so that you can go, fly off and soar with the tools that were taught.


Therapy is rooted in the past and present; coaching focuses on the future. In therapy, you face the past in order to move forward


While Therapists have credentials you can make a choice from and life coaches have certifications, I would encourage you to choose someone who inspires you, someone who has been through and has overcome, and lives a life in alignment with your beliefs and theologies.



When to see a therapist

  • You see mental health symptoms like anxiety, depression, trauma, eating disorders and you want to heal from past hurts or trauma.

  • Support navigating emotions.

  • Struggle with interpersonal relationships and want to learn strategies to feel less impacted by others.

  • Experiencing relationship issues

  • Therapy allows you space to talk it out

  • Looks into the past to overcome deeply rooted issues and life events

When to see a life coach

  • You want to get ‘unstuck’ and need help through the process

  • You are grateful for the life you live but you need that extra motivation to piece your puzzle together.

  • You desire promotion, change or advancement in your career

  • You want to stop unhelpful habits and create healthy ones that cause forward movement

  • You hear the inner critic want to learn how to quiet that voice

  • You desire a life with purpose but are unsure where to start.

  • You feel confused about what is next or the next chapter and need guidance

  • You want to unleash the motivation to a big goal like running a marathon, starting a business, or lose weight

  • You want to be held accountable and seek supportive empowerment

  • You need a launching pad to jump off and soar


If you need help, there is help ready for you. And needing it does not make you weak, less confident, failing or worthless. It is actually the exact opposite -- it means you are brave, bold, courageous, growing, leveling up and powerful. It is a bold move.


If you are at a crossroads between, I love this life but what is my next move, or want to get unstuck and walk empowered through the process, I am available and excited for you! I am a Certified Life Coach that has walked through life experiencing victory and constant revelation to walk empowered and confidently.



I would love to help you walk through too. My life coaching sessions vary depending on the need with the same goal throughout: victory and onward. If we sit and find that it is a match, we can get started right away!


You can contact me here: writeme@laurynewasan.com

Instagram: @laurynewasan




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"Visionaries Circle is amazing, Lauryne. I love how you helped us unpack the process and helped us get clarity to be intentional for the New Year. The content is so valuable. There is SO MUCH. IT IS SO RICH. But YOU bring something even better with it. I have been sitting here with my workbook and my thoughts and I am so grateful. Your heart in all the details is so evident and I know this not only left a lasting impact on my life, but everyone else who also attended (and those who will in the future). Thank you for saying YES to Him to use your gifts, talents and heart for Him"

- Gracelyn M.


WOW. A new decade, a new year. I know we are well in to 2020 already but bear with me, lol.


I know it can all seem so cliche but there is just something so powerful about starting new, pressing in for a fresh word and the hopeful expectancy that comes with the new. I pray that as you walked into 2020, all that could have been, should have been and what you desired 2019 to be, was released -- that shame and guilt was not your story you were dragging into the new year with. And in the same breath, you did not drag any of the weight of 2019 with you. That reconciliation took place in spaces that rang with unforgiveness even with yourself. And you stepped into 2020 hopeful, bursting with hope and carrying a shout of VICTORY.


TIME OUT. If you feel you did not, this is not your cue for discouragement to settle in. But pause for a moment, and address what may arose when you read that last paragraph. Awareness is key more than settling into feelings that are not your truth. Address the thought process, write it down, surrender it to Him and then settle in prayer. If I can walk with you through this process to healing, freedom and conquering fears, please feel free to email me at writeme@laurynewasan.com


okay TIME IN.


I reflect on 2019 and how much differently it looked from 2018 and how different it already is compared to 2020 which is already projected to be crazy good. I am excited for this year, and I am not going to front and say this excitement takes place with every new year because uhm, that is not how I felt ringing in 2019. Jus saying.


I had stepped away from a lot to prepare for what I knew what God was positioning me for this year. There was the audactiy He was giving me, to fully recieve who He says I am beyond what I know in my head and as a believer: I am the apple of His eye, His delight, His daughter, an heir of The Kingdom, etc. But to fully grasp (or have a better grasp) of the specifics of my being that He created but that is IN me because of Him; the uniqueness and the profundity, that which still needs refinement, the tid bits that are valid even when they are not in use, and even when my words cannot articulate properly. And this is continuous even today.


Still, I feel God asking me to remain in a position to receive what He is showing me of myself that I would not be able to justify based on what I am doing (or not doing) to deserve that. This is detailed in my previous blog post, https://www.laurynewasan.com/post/what-looked-like-isolation-was-quite-the-opposite


The parts you only discover within yourself by being intimate with Him and the journey to self-discovery that is only found by walking with Him; and that folks, has been the entirety of my walk with Him in all of the most recent years. Sheesh.


So when He reminded me of Visionaries Circle and what He confirmed repeatedly in this space of "not doing anything" I knew it would be a full circle moment for me.


And it was.


It has taken me a bit (eeks almost two months *facepalm) to process fully while also listening to my body and the rest it required. Thankful for this time in my life that I am able to. I know it is almost a luxury to get to intentionally take rest that is scheduled because it is maybe more possible for me now without children tugging on my hem or a husband I am a wife to. I am utterly thankful and very much enjoying it.


Visionaries Circle has been a 2-year long process I did not see when I said YES. I have always felt the most fulfilled (not in the measure of my worth but in the measure of purpose and what God has called me to) when I get to create spaces that allow women (mostly) a space to reflect, encounter a real God and move forward in what He is asking of them in this moment, season, assignment. The Lord has always shown me the power in the process. And I am not necessarily referring to the process of perfection but the process in the waiting on Him, the process in our becoming because I know everything God has called us to do, we already have within us like a seed (The Holy Spirit within).


And as I continue on, it has been more about peeling back the layers and letting it unfold so that what needs to be released like a sprout, will.


And I love that space because most of the time some of what those layers entail are the playbacks of lies spoken to us indirectly and directly, the insecurities that come with past experiences and real fears of what people may think of us because the last time.... everyone had an opinion. I have been there also. Sometimes, there is still more to extract so I can continue to walk forward too, every single day.


I know Visionaries is circled around clarity in the overwhelm and successful execution without the hustle and grind, in our visions and dreams but Visionaries Circle was not a big dream, long thought-out process. It was this idea in the middle of intercession that resonated loudly. As I walked in it after the YES, I realized the profundity and the necessity of its existence.


Here is what I learned that has been effective both in my own walk and those who have attended. Here are five things you can effectively do on your own:


1. Gratitude cultivates joy

2. Creating a space (both in head-space and in the physical) of rememberance and reflection is necessary for the "next step, the now what and the level up" -- make room

3. Prayer is the most important part of it all

4. The overwhelm usually is created by an unclear action plan

5. The hussle and grind will cause burnout. So will an unclear plan and lack of strategy. It doesn't have to be this way though.






FAQ's


What is Visionaries Circle?

It is an intentional space prepared for believers to respond to God. For the individuals who want to walk onward into what God has for them -- dissecting and unraveling the pieces of their God-dreams and Visions for planning to successful execution, even if they those pieces and dreams can not be expressed yet.


Who is it for?

Visionaries, Dreamers, Entreprenuers, Creatives, Believers, Goal Getters, Dream Starters... but not limited to. I find that some people just need a place to unwind and unearth what is ALREADY in them and everyone is welcome.


What do you hope people get from attending?

Fresh revelation, clearer vision, real practical steps to move forward in their daily walks, confidence in their YES, a safe space for reflection and a deeper love for Jesus. Alot of intentional planning and prayer is involved for this space to come alive. It is my intention for people to come to a safe place to unravel in His presence so He can do what He does. The experience is different for each person but the goal is always the same.


What is covered in a session?

"Visionaries Circle can't be explained, it has to be experienced" someone once said. We go through clear and intentional planning so you can walk with clarity to do what Hes called you to do and BE who He has called you to be. We focus on reflection, cultivating gratitude, worship, planning and vision boarding. Every session is completely different but you can expect breakthrough and a space intentionally and prayerfully created specifically for YOU.


Will there be another Visionaries Circle or one like it?

Absolutely. Very soon. Stay tuned. For more information, next sessions and/or to subscribe, please go to www.laurynewasan.com/visionariescircle


Will you be joining us? Is Visionaries Circle something you need this year to help you continue on? Let me know! Would love to connect with you and would love to make sure you are with us next time! It is never too late!


One-on-one coaching is also available. You can find more information here or emailing "Visionaries Circle" to writeme@laurynewasan.com



"There’s so much that could be said about Visionaries Circle. From the details of the decor to the details in the prayers that are said over every participant, it is indeed a space to sit, soak, and set new goals into motion. We all went in to set goals. But for me, the GOLD was lin eaving with a deeper appreciation for relishing in all that happened the previous year. That time freed up space for more creativity in the new year."

- Tiff L.


"I realized I needed the time and place to process and receive because my callenge is my headspace. I received a lot of confirmation and learned alot while at Visionaries Circle that has allowed me to release the control and surrender. I really enjoyed it -- it was AMAZING!!" - Sandra R.


"God spoke to my heart especially about being intentional. I had an expectant heart and I recieved clarity from God. Thank you so much"

- Donna W.


"Being at visionaries circle was a time where I could release everything thing that isn’t meant to be in 2020 and in my life. In a moment of complete surrender and soaking, I was able to let go and receive his goodness over me. I am able to sit and be present just like that night. Now I’m learning to tackle my agenda and schedules to be productive and not just busy. I’m on a learning path to seek my purpose and the things God wants me to do with this life he gave me."

- Ana M.

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